my plethora of gibberish.

desires.

2009-12-13T07:28:55Z

everyday,
we get to give the gift of life.
it can be painful,
it can be terrifying,
but in the end it's worth it.
every single time.

we all have the opportunity to give,
maybe the gifts aren't as dramatic as winning the lottery,
maybe the gift is to try and make a simple apology,
maybe it's to understand another person's point of view,
maybe it's to hold a secret for a friend.

the joy supposedly,
is in the giving.
so when the joy is gone,
when the giving starts to feel more like a burden,
thats when you stop.

but if you're like most people,
you give till it hurts,
and then,
you give some more.

merry christmas?

encore!

2009-07-12T19:19:13Z

a last late night session of guitar hero with buddies!

WOOT

rock to the beat, beat the blues!

tranquil.

2009-07-11T18:10:12Z

there is peace before the storm, as the saying goes.
as time slows down to nothingness and being carefree seems so unbounded,
you always believe this is the moment to live for.
worries subside as happiness flourishes,
amusement arising from trivial banter,
and company you could partake forever.

gatherings seem ever so eventful,
with laughter resonating the darkest nights.
conversations which both intrigue and allure.

the reality is,
everything must end.

as tears of joy become tears of agony,
through the extension of bonds.
embraces abound,
for the affliction that encompasses your inner soul,
comforting the fear of deficient contact.

every single breathe,
flutters your heart.
depicting ever so accurately,
the uncertainty of the path that lies ahead.

but one must only move forward,
regardless of reason,
so that achievement and progress can be attained.

in times of adversity, the strong survive and the weak wilt.
all hope is lost, only when one gives up.
its a one way street, and theres no turning back.
time to hit the road.

"Faith is taking the first step, even when you don't see the whole staircase."

resonate.

2009-06-24T18:33:31Z

bliss.

2009-04-08T09:07:21Z

standstill.

2009-04-05T18:58:31Z

the game was played,
and now it's a stalemate,
or is it? i don't know.
one thing for sure,
i'm stuck in limbo.

we're playing with high stakes,
but nevertheless, i'm all in.

Warning.

2009-02-24T18:07:51Z

note to self.

NEVER BUY ANOTHER ADIDAS SHOE UNLESS ITS FREE.
2 super blisters after, i'm seriously regretting buying you.

NIKE FTW.

the most ...... time of my life!

2009-02-22T13:11:06Z

the prospect of sentosa is always a good one right?

the long train ride to harbourfront did well to conceal the outside.

low and behold,
dark clouds and signs of rain passed.
then, IT RAINED.
spent time rotting in vivocity instead.

when we managed to get there, it was still drizzling.
but never mind that, its cool
then it RAINEDDDD again.
rarrr

the salt water serenaded with my ulcer,
bringing with it stinging pain.
after which we had our shower, and went for dinner.
the food was average, coupled with exorbitant prices,
heavenly.

then comes the night.
sleeping on the table was certainly not a good idea,
but given the lack of choices. yeah
mosquitoes rampant, the night was practically spent warding them off.
and my legs itched like mad throughout the night, not to mention aarons'.

come dawn, it was a huge relieve.
mosquitoes magically just disappeared.
and that was the first time i could sleep properly.
ahhh..

that pretty much sums up my sentosa saturday.
yipee!

heee AHHHH TUS!

2009-02-16T17:41:55Z

well, i'm back!
after a super extended period.

well its a new year, and it took my roughly 2 months to post something new.
looking back through the previous year,
it was a complete mess.
knowing what i went through, it the worst i've ever experienced before.
but what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger.

besides that, i guess life has turned for the better.
this new year has been amazing!
so many things that happened, i will remember for life.

the night cycle, post-army sendoffs, late night driving,
king albert park macs! haha

this year has really been fruitful.
though it has ups and downs, i'm glad its all over now.
i've ended my last day as a student..... for now. heh
it was the toughest year for me, being detached and all.
and i've seen the immaturity of people,
even though they are more senior than me.
sometimes, they just need a wake up call.

oh well! i'm now happily enjoying my holidays!
and i'm lovinnnn it!

thunderstorm.

2008-12-24T04:35:48Z

it's really getting bleak.
just give me a ray of light,
it's all i need to breakthrough.

ONE RAY, ONE RAY,
ALL I NEED.

dumbcheng @ 2008-12-03T02:19:00

2008-12-02T18:20:40Z

the rain kept me in today.

AHHH WHY DID IT RAIN. WHYYYY!!!!

BYE BYE RAIN RAIN!

ok random. haha

countdown: 5 weeks

praying.

2008-11-23T10:40:48Z

i'm so distraught.
all the times we've been through thick and thin,
while i was struggling to catch my breathe,
always turning to you in times of need.

you never left me behind,
but somehow i did.
one too many in fact.

and now you're gone,
and i miss you so.
will you come back to me?

I MISS YOU NALGENE. PLEASE COME BACK!!
hahah

on that fateful saturday, shit never fails to happen.
went for training w/o socks. WTFFF
ended up having to traverse all the way to opposite school and back.
JUST TO BUY A PAIR OF SOCKS.
why am i so forgetful.

friday was a good day though!
finally i got my gold for napfa! WEEEEEEEEEEEE
i dont need to go in army early! hahahaha
i almost totaled my thumb doing standing broad jump though. =\
the run was somewhat exhausting, with unhelpful event planners.

so that kinda sums up my week. highs and lows.
tomorrow starts a new week again.
with my project judging in mid week.
ahhhhhh!!!

ok back to work.

I saw you,
was sick and tired of my wrong turns.
If you only knew,
the way I feel I'd really love to tell you,
But I can never find the words to say
and I don't know why.

countdown starts again : 6 weeks.

ultimatum.

2008-11-12T06:45:18Z

it's gonna get tougher from here on out.
sometimes, you just gotta grab whats yours.
it's been hanging out there for too long and it's time i did something about it.

i don't wanna disappoint myself,
i wanna achieve what i sought to do.

if i have to push myself to my limits and beyond, so be it.
IT HAS TO BE DONE.

work hard, play hard but of course, study hard. heh.
things are getting tougher as the days go by.
fatigue is setting in from the 4 weeks of nonsense.
i've gotta stop working by next week, or somethings gonna break.

Spoilt bio-clock, the feeling of not having slept enough,
constant lapse of concentration.
ahhhh..

from here on out. it's gotta be different,
for me and for the team.

I've taken my beating,
I've shared what I've made.
I'm strong on the surface,
but not all the way through.
Though i have never been perfect,
neither have you.
So if you're asking me I want you to know,
leave out all the rest.

the storm is fast approaching,
and it's gonna sweep you off your feet,
if you're not prepared.

slowly, but surely, hopefully.

2008-10-29T07:12:27Z

school's just started, and this will be a new semester,
that i've rejuvenated from within myself.
goals and targets, striving for that excellence.

everything WILL go smooth, and for the better.
i just can feel it.

Well it's a lonely road that you have chosen,
and it's a long time since your heart was frozen.
Morning comes and you don't want to know me anymore
For a moment your eyes open and you know,
All the things I ever wanted you to know.
I don't know you, and I don't want to
Till the moment your eyes open, and you'll know.

I know you think I'm holding you down
And I've fallen by the wayside now
And I don't understand the same things as you
But I do .

just push on and endure.

the worlds most expensive dinner.

2008-10-13T03:39:50Z

Initial Bill: $60
Later Bill: $3000+

Finding out it costs so fucking much : PRICELESS.

i hate idiots.

it's been awhile

2008-09-20T09:33:31Z

well this is my first post in a million years, haha.
internships over, and now i'm embracing my holidays.
wonderful holidays.

SIP was filled with ups and downs, but i'm glad i overcame it.

Holidays rule man, if there were no holidays, everyone would definately strike as they liked.
its definately a breather. =)

so today was spent swimming, and now stoning in front of the computer. haha.
but oh wells i'm definately gonna enjoy this month.

ROCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

NUFF SAID.

2008-07-28T06:44:49Z

it's not who you are beneath, it's what you do that defines you.

train for yourself.
train for the better of your teammates.
train for the fact that you can be better.

masks undone,
and you've seen it all.
beneath that facade,
a distortion of whats real,
lies an image that will never,
reach daylight.

The one solution,
to the problem,
it makes me crazy,
it turns me inside out.

my heart is beating, so hard i cannot breathe

hmmm?

2008-06-16T15:21:02Z

its been a hell long of a time since i last posted.
a month to be exact.
well internship has started, as well as basketball training.

i miss my last holidays!
had my 2nd first 3 months. hahaha
kinda regained my passion there.
after shooting training for at least 3 months,
i'm glad it pays off now.

internship period is a bore.
constantly waking up at 6 am just so i can reach school promptly.
pretty much 9 - 5 everyday.
kinda in preparation for working life i think? oops.

well 5 more weeks to POL-ITE games.
hopefully i can attain my goal.
didnt go fto thailand as i expected,
but good things maybe come in different ways.
so just push. =D

and it has been quite wet the past few days.
i pretty much got drenched just waiting for the bus a few days ago. =\

it was kinda fun though! reliving the childhood times.
it would be nice if we could just rewind and do things over again!

so Wednesday will be my Traffic Police Test.
i want to wrap things up, so i can be a qualified driver!

so many things bothering my though,
nothing of the things i'm gonna do.
just the stuff that is always bottled up within you.
plainly, LOVE?
its such a bummer to fall for someone.

i'm just gonna go sleep now.
SLEEP IS NO.1.

in other words,
LIFE IS TOUGH - DJ Chiam

=\

2008-05-11T16:12:58Z

corns sucks.

im sorry, i did not mean,
to hurt my little girl.
it's beyond me,
i cannot carry,
the weight the heavy world.
so goodnight.

hope that things work out alright. =\

morning driving session tomorrow, 7am. zomg.

hello world, again.

2008-04-27T19:13:41Z

a long time has passed since i last posted.
many thing happened then.
SO MANY THINGS TO WRITE SO LITTLE TIME.

ok so school has started,
the first week was bullshit. spent stoning in a room surfing internet.
since we had little information on the internship.
clocking every morning by 900am is hectic, especially with the variables called traffic and weather.

so far, spent 20 odd on cab fare.
that sucks in any book.
thursday and fridays was spent at the CCA recruitment booth.
it was kinda fun in a way, seeing new people and meeting them.
throwing rugby with adriel and co,
and writing stupid stuffs in the cca form. haha

after the thailand trip, i've a constant craving for thai food.
yes, it rocks.
THERES ONE THING THAT SG DOESNT SELL!
their yellow dry noodle, oh so satisfying yet simplistic in nature.
singapore just doesnt sell it! =(
arghh

much time needed this sem on sleeping, just to counter the long hours.
at least my project probably will have an real impact on society.
ok enough for now. i will post soon.

another scintillating match going on!

Cavaliers vs Wizards

88 : 82

with time still on the clock!
GO CAVS!

i'm quite drowsy now too.

prelude to a thousand smiles.

2008-04-02T17:06:43Z

hey world.
well today was spent rather eventful.
though i was damn pissed in the morning.
i had driving in the morning, and i freaking woke up late.
i ended up paying 40 bucks+ for my driving lessons.
that includes taxi fare, as my instructor was kind enough to make mine an hour session instead,
he's a nice chap.

i had my hair cut, my cheque deposited.
and then proceeded to play a friendly game of mahjong!

kenneth, kian peng, kelvin, fiona and pak was plentiful of company.
had much fun, with biscuits spree. haha
had dinner at J8 food junction,
a super inflated place to eat.
oh wells, had loads of laughter and dumb jokes.

well now i'm here waiting for my flight at 6am.
WOOTS.
a much needed rest.

Triple H. Hip Hip Hurray!

2008-03-06T03:04:57Z

first thing, exams are over! haha
it happened last tuesday so, wth.

it has been fun ever since!
i overslept last week, and missed my driving lesson. hahahha
the teacher was abit sad i think, a whole 1hr 30 minutes without anything.

playing basketball trying to get better.
going gym to tear my body apart. hahha

saturday and sunday was spent with my family.
and this week, i made my passport!
and i've a very bad cough and flu, influenza maybe.
arrrrr

i've driving later on, then nothing much later.
yesterday was spastic as it rained like nobody's business.
kinda spolit day.
but gym-med with lh, chun and adrian.
totally totalled my arms.
i hope i can drive later. haha

oh wells, laters!
i think i'd better visit the it fair soon too! lol

argh.

2008-02-24T08:51:33Z

i'm probably gonna post another time.
exams tmr.
zzzz

the longest time.

2008-02-12T19:03:17Z

wow. i'm back at last.
the last post was dated 21st january. thats how busy i am till now.
project deadlines and school related rubbish never failed to bother me.
but i'm glad its all kind of nearing the end.
it's the last week of school, followed by exams then internship.
time really flies.

well, CNY was a plus!
that among other stuffs, theres so much to say about.
so many things has happened this past few weeks.

lets list it out shall we,

1. Bye Bye Ipod. (Stolen by some faggot who will probably die of lung cancer soon)

2. Bye Bye Projects

3. Bye Bye Grace

4. Fun time with kw,lh and gang.

and lots more.

ok ipod, my brother was using it, but unfortunately got stolen, along with his camera.
stupid faggot will die for taking my ePOD.

projects have pretty much ended.

grace has gone to australia! for at least the whole of this year, how sad. Airport send off yesterday at the NEW
changi T3. apparently theres much i didnt see.
T3 IS IMMENSE. so many things to see, so little time.
bought a few stuffs from Candy Empire to munch on.
Well then came the dumb bus ride. IT WAS DAMN LONG.
word of advice, never take 24 from the airport. it sucks.
at least an hour wasted just on the bus.
but me and ru talked a whole lot. We ended up cabbing in the end though.

haha the best part of last week.
TUESDAY.
played ball with lh, kw and DJ. A nice way to better my skills, which are so lacking.
played quite alot that day. After which was us to meet a few other friends.
I made new friends that day. LAUGHED LIKE MAD as usual.
namely, jerome, mark, gabriel, adrian.
well we first decided to go LAN-ing. and we had
AN ENCOUNTER WITH THE UNDERWORLD KIND.
omg. haha that was madness.
we were playing and sorta making a ruckus.
which made some guy damn pissed off.
he was playing audition and i guess we made him screw up the keys. HAHAHA
well he was that pissed off, that he decided to call his minions.
In the end we just walked off, he tried to follow us.
but he got deterred by the word POLICE. LMAO.
after which adrian met up with us as we just made the bus just in time.
we made a ruckus on the bus as well. hahaha
i think the bus driver told us to tone it down. oh wells. it didnt stop there.
we then headed down to wen chun's house, which was COLOSSAL
seriously. it's damn big. no pics now, but probably next time.
we had pizza for dinner/supper, played pool, talked crap, played limit hold'em
played push up "Tai-Tee", swam, played blackjack.
well thats madness for you.
the remaining survivors were down to 4. the rest dozed off like pigs.
me, lh, marcus and jerome played push up tai tee till wee hours in the night.
we ended up sleeping at 5, having to wake up 30 minutes later. WTF
me and marcus left early, having to go to school(F That).
we took a long train ride back to tampines where i had a nominal breakfast of
mamee snack and pokka coffee(energy boost) at TPJC.
school was a bummer.
i wasted no time in heading home to sleep.
that was the last time i heard from my ipod as well. sigh

ahh theres just so much to write about.
family gatherings was nice this year!
had fun playing rubik's cube. i only can solve one side. DONT LAUGH
played cards and mahjong with my cousin's to their demise. hahhaa
i won!
thats pretty much it.

so just another BIG post dumped onto this blog-o-mine.

new revelation:
NO MORE RELATIONSHIPS. (i think)
they are such a waste of time. if it comes, it comes.
i wont bother anymore.
valentine's day is just another stupid excuse for you to be with a girl.
why do it then, when you can do it every other day?
THATS PURE LAME. everything else is super inflated on that day. MAD

SG Flyer trip coming up in march! =)
i have 2 tickets!
i had intentions, but i'm gonna trash it.
i'll probably see what to do with it when the date closes.

no point waiting for something that doesn't come your way.
constant hope gets battered everyday.
i'm quite done waiting and standing there in the corner.
even if you want to be a part of something bigger,
that chance may never happen.
so that's it. i'm done.

SO BYE BYE FOLKS ITS BLOODY LATE.
THANKS TO PRISON BREAK and some work. =\

message in a bottle.

2008-01-21T08:53:18Z

HELP! HELP!
i'm stuck on an island which is overloaded with work.

i need a break. my brain isn't functioning well.